“Safe at Home”

I’m very excited to announce that my short story “Safe at Home” is available in A Murder of Storytellers anthology Sorry, We’re Closed which is available now.

2/21/15 (Morning)

There’s nothing quite as good as being young and in love. Except maybe drugs. Although, drugs can have lasting side effects, whereas love’s only potential downfall is pregnancy. Be honest, would you rather crack a knuckle and go on an unexpected acid trip or spend nine months with a parasite growing to the size of a baby watermelon inside of you? I know my answer and, more importantly, Reynolds knows my answer.

No, not Burt Reynolds, though I sometimes see the resemblance too. My boyfriend Paul is also last-named Reynolds. I refuse to call him Paul though. Pauls are serious men that work on computers and have no souls. Reynolds is the kind of man who would climb a tree to save a cat that had gotten itself stuck. A Paul wouldn’t. Thus, Reynolds. He’s got spiky cool guy hair and he’s strong enough to carry me down 5 flights of stairs, though he has to put me down at the landings on the way back up. It gets all of his blood rushing and his arms look huge afterward, but we can’t really bone because of the cast. Don’t get me wrong, we do other things that are nice, but some actual penetration would be wonderful.

He was doing all this carrying because I’d pulled a Kennedy drinking and skiing. What can I say? Massachusetts born and raised. I took a jump, didn’t get my tip up high enough for the landing, and crack. There went my fibula. In most ways though, I was lucky. How many skiers die per year? Fifty-four out of every million do in the U.S. When your leg is broken and you live on the fifth floor walkup, no question is too unimportant for thorough research, or, in this case, Googling how many skiers die per year. There’s time to exhaust the content on your high school boyfriend’s Netflix account. Time to write fifty pages of Harry Potter fan fiction and read it to your poor boyfriend when he gets home from work. Time to peep on the legged through the window.

Continue reading my story and 17 other chilllers in the anthology, available here!

Ryan’s Writing (and Other) Resolutions

I wrote a list of writing resolutions for A Murder of Storytellers. You can check that out here!

My Non-Writing Resolutions are to:

1.) Relax more.

2.) See more films directed by women and people of color. See how I did this year here.

3.) Read more books by writers of color. Ideally, I want 40% of what I read to be by writers of color. I came very close this year, but not quite good enough. I am proud to say that I read as many women as men.

4.) Exercise at least twice a week. I’m running my first 5K in March, so the running should carry me through until then.

5.) Play more guitar. At one point, music was my life. I love what I do now, but there’s no reason I can’t have hobbies.

Truth and Fiction Aren’t Identical in David Cronenberg’s Dead Ringers

On July 19th, 1975 Stewart and Cyril Marcus—the twin gynecologists who inspired Bari Woods and Jackie Gleasand’s novel Twins, which in turned inspired David Cronenberg’s Dead Ringers — were found dead in their apartment. In this case, the truth might be stranger than the fiction. Certainly, it was more gristly. According to The New York Times article “Death of Twin Doctors Linked to Despondency, “Cyril Marcus had weighed just over 100 pounds when he died, although he was 5 feet 11 inches tall.” (1) He was, “found lying face down on a bed, wearing only undershorts. His brother was found lying face up on the floor, nude.” (1)

The Lineup reports that a police lieutenant told Linda Wolfe that, “There wasn’t an inch of floor that wasn’t littered… The place was a pigsty.” (2) He went on to show Wolfe photos of the scene, which she described in this passage:

Read that passage and more at Wicked Horror!

Movies I Watched in 2018

  1. Bright (1/1/18)
  2. Lethal Weapon (1/3/18)
  3. Battle of the Sexes (1/5/18)
  4. Delirium – 2018, Johnny Martin (1/7/18)
  5. The Shape of Water (1/11/18)
  6. The Mist (1/12/18)
  7. The Babysitter (1/28/18)
  8. Hatchet (2/1/18)
  9. Hellboy II: The Golden Army (2/4/18)
  10. Return of the Living Dead (2/9/18)
  11. Day of the Dead: Bloodline (2/10/18)
  12. The Ritual (2/11/18)
  13. Creep 2 (2/13/18)
  14. Wild at Heart (2/14/18)
  15. The Hateful Eight (2/17/18)
  16. Crimson Peak (2/18/18)
  17. Ouija:Origin of Evil (2/19/18)
  18. The Tingler (2/20/18)
  19. World’s Greatest Dad (2/21/18)
  20. Lucky (2/21/18)
  21. Black Panther (2/22/18)
  22. Cube (2/25/18)
  23. Annihilation (2/26/18)
  24. Heathers (3/3/18)
  25. Ingrid Goes West (3/4/18)
  26. Columbus (3/7/18)
  27. Dawn of the Dead (3/10/18)
  28. The Hero (3/15/18)
  29. Imitation Girl (3/15/18)
  30. Blade II (3/17/18)
  31. Blacula (3/19/18)
  32. Veronica (3/19/18)
  33. The 13th (3/20/18)
  34. Man Bites Dog (3/21/18)
  35. Everything is Terrible: The Great Satan (3/21/18)
  36. Wait Until Dark (3/22/18)
  37. Piranha 3D (3/23/18)
  38. The Bad Seed (3/25/18)
  39. Ghost Stories (3/27/18)
  40. Them (4/1/18)
  41. Ready Player One (4/1/18)
  42. Paranormal Activity (4/2/18)
  43. A Quiet Place (4/10/18)
  44. What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? (4/12/18)
  45. Carrie (4/14/18)
  46. Downrange (4/15/18)
  47. The Wailing (4/18/18)
  48. Forgetting Sarah Marshall (4/19/18)
  49. Logan Lucky (4/21/18)
  50. House (4/22/18)
  51. Attack on the Block (4/23/18)
  52. Avengers: Infinity War (4/27/18)
  53. The Twilight Zone Movie (5/3/18)
  54. Island Zero (5/4/18)
  55. Witchfinder General (5/4/18)
  56. Get Out (5/9/18)
  57. Ravenous (5/10/18)
  58. The Mummy (5/11/18)
  59. Before I Wake (5/12/18)
  60. Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me (5/16/18)
  61. Resident Evil (5/17/18)
  62. The Blob (5/17/18)
  63. Cold November (5/18/18)
  64. Don’t Breathe (5/19/18)
  65. Taxi Driver (5/23/18)
  66. Deadpool 2 (5/27/18)
  67. Cargo (5/30/18)
  68. Don’t Look Now (6/1/18)
  69. Parava (6/4/18)
  70. Trolls: Holiday (6/7/18)
  71. Upgrade (6/9/18)
  72. The Endless (6/10/18)
  73. Vidar the Vampire (6/11/18)
  74. Hereditary (6/14/18)
  75. The Visit (6/16/18)
  76. The Cop Baby (6/18/18)
  77. Satan’s Slaves (6/19/18)
  78. Sicario (6/20/18)
  79. Howl’s Moving Castle (6/25/18)
  80. The Hitman’s Bodyguard (6/27/18)
  81. Sicario: Day of the Soladado (6/28/18)
  82. Kill List (7/1/18)
  83. Spirited Away (7/3/18)
  84. Solo (7/4/18)
  85. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (7/7/18)
  86. Ghostbusters: Answer the Call (7/11/18)
  87. Oceans 8 (7/12/18)  
  88. Deep Red (7/13/18)
  89. Pontypool (7/14/18)
  90. Boarding School (7/18/18)
  91. My Neighbor Totoro (7/19/18)
  92. The Incredibles 2 (7/21/18)
  93. The Bad Seed – 2018 (7/25/18)
  94. Killer Klowns From Outer Space (7/25/18)
  95. Along Came the Devil (7/26/18)
  96. Casino (7/27/18)
  97. Brawl in Cell Block 99 (7/28/18)
  98. Demons (7/29/18)
  99. Mission Impossible: Fallout (7/30/18)
  100. The Bird with the Crystal Plumage (8/1/18)
  101. Two Evil Eyes (8/2/18)
  102. Sorry to Bother You (8/7/18)
  103. The Girl with All the Gifts (8/8/18)
  104. Insidious: The Last Key (8/8/18)
  105. Predator 2 (8/10/18)
  106. Behind the Mask: The Rise of Leslie Vernon (8/12/18)
  107. Heat (8/13/18)
  108. Identity (8/14/18)
  109. The Shallows (8/23/18)
  110. Dead of Night (Deathdream) (8/24/18)
  111. The Shining (8/25/18)
  112. Room 237 (8/25/18)
  113. Zombie (8/26/18)
  114. Patriot Games (8/26/18)
  115. The Blackkklansmen (9/1/18)
  116. Crazy Rich Asians (9/2/18)
  117. They Live (9/3/18)
  118. Game Night (9/8/18)
  119. Mandy (9/15/18)
  120. We Have Always Lived in the Castle (9/19/18)
  121. The Elephant Man (9/21/18)
  122. Opera (9/27/18)
  123. Fido (10/5/18)
  124. The Babadook (10/6/18)
  125. Silencio (10/7/18)
  126. Phantasm (10/9/18)
  127. Goosebumps (10/13/18)
  128. Let the Right One In (10/14/18)
  129. Bad Times at the El Royale (10/14/18)
  130. Lost Highways (10/18/18)
  131. Halloween 2018 (10/18/18)
  132. Ant-Man and the Wasp (10/25/18)
  133. Hellraiser: Hellseeker (10/26/18)
  134. Christine (10/27/18)
  135. Jason Goes to Hell: The Final Friday (10/28/18)
  136. Apostle (10/31/18)
  137. Unsane (11/1/18)
  138. Suspiria (11/4/18)
  139. The Hate U Give (11/10/18)
  140. A Star is Born (11/11/18)
  141. Justice League (11/17/18)
  142. Widows (11/19/18)  
  143. Vertigo (11/24/18)
  144. Bubba Ho-Tep (11/25/18)
  145. The House that Jack Built (11/28/18)
  146. Tag (12/1/18)
  147. Blockers (12/2/18)
  148. Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom (12/2/18)
  149. Jaws (12/4/18)
  150. The Christmas Chronicles (12/9/18)
  151. Get Out (12/11/18)
  152. The Princess Bride (12/12/18)
  153. Get Out (12/12/18)
  154. The Evil Dead 2 (12/12/18)
  155. Sisters (12/13/18)
  156. Alien 3 (12/14/18)
  157. The Meg (12/15/18)
  158. Jigoku (12/19/18)
  159. Gremlins (12/20/18)
  160. Moonlight (12/20/18)
  161. Silent Night, Deadly Night 2 (12/21/18)
  162. Santa’s Slay (12/23/18)
  163. Venom (12/24/18)
  164. The Horror of Dracula (12/28/18)
  165. The Favourite (12/30/18)

Books I Read in 2018

I feel pretty good about how much I was able to read in 2018, in large part because of the audiobooks I listened to at the gym. Here are the 100 books I read last year:

  1. Never Flirt with Puppy Killers and Other Better Book Titles by Dan Wilbur (1/4/18) Print
  2. Ghost Story by Peter Straub (1/9/18) – Ebook
  3. The Borrower by Rebecca Makkai (1/16/18) Audiobook
  4. Homesick for Another World by Otessa Moshfegh (1/18/18) Print
  5. Annihilation by Jeff Vandermeer (1/21/18) Print
  6. The Inferno by Dante Aligheri (1/22/18) Audiobook
  7. A Curtain of Green by Eudora Welty (1/22/18) Print
  8. The Buddha in the Attic by Julie Otsuka (1/26/18) Audiobook
  9. The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman (2/2/18) Audiobook
  10. Sleeping Beauties by Stephen King and Owen King (2/3/18) Print
  11. When the Emperor was Divine by Julie Otsuka (2/5/18) Audiobook
  12. A Poetry Handbook by Mary Oliver (2/7/18) Print
  13. The Wide Net and Other Stories by Eudora Welty (2/12/18) Print
  14. Nights of the Living Dead Edited by Jonathon Mayberry and George A Romero (2/20/18) Print
  15. Red Moon Rising by Benjamin Percy (3/1/18) Audio
  16. Fever Dream by Samanta Schweblin (3/2/18) Audio
  17. Vlad by Carlos Fuentes (3/5/18) Audio
  18. A Rose in the Wintertime by Sid Martin (3/9/18) Workshop
  19. The Song of the Shank by Jeffery Renard Allen (3/9/18) Print
  20. Hell Gate by Elizabeth Massie (3/10/18) Audio
  21. The Vampyr by John William Polidori (3/10/18) Audio
  22. Poe’s Children: The New Horror: An Anthology Edited by Peter Straub (3/13/18) Print
  23. The Ballad of Black Tom by Victor LaValle (3/14/18) Print
  24. The Power by Naomi Alderman (3/19/18) Print
  25. Experimental Film by Gemma Files (3/22/18) Audio
  26. Authority by Jeff Vandermeer (3/26/18) Print
  27. The Little Stranger by Sarah Waters (3/28/18) Audio
  28. Acceptance by Jeff Vandermeer (4/3/18) Print
  29. After Jubilee by Brionne Janae (4/10/18) Print
  30. The Hunger by Alma Katsu (4/11/18) Audio
  31. Copper and Gold by Jessica Copeland (4/12/18) Print
  32. Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng (4/18/18) Print
  33. Bird Box by Josh Malerman (4/19/18) Audio
  34. Stormborn: 13 Hearts to Start a Storm by Jack Burgos (4/19/18) Print
  35. Psychopomp and Circumstance by Adrean Messmer (4/22/18) Print
  36. Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng (4/26/18) Audio
  37. Stormborn 2: The Fool and the Knave by Jack Burgos (4/26/18) Workshop
  38. Pale Shadows by Shannon Iwanski (4/26/18) Print
  39. Texts from Jane Eyre by Mallory Ortberg (4/28/18) Ebook
  40. Electric Arches by Eve L. Ewing (4/28/18) Print
  41. Fire Sermon by Jamie Quatro (5/4/18) Print
  42. Portrait of the Alcoholic by Kaveh Akbar (5/4/18) Print
  43. Francis Shoots Pool at Chubb’s Bar: Poems by Al Ortolani (5/7/18) Print
  44. Pachinko by Min Jin Lee (5/16/18) Print
  45. Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier (5/21/18) Audio
  46. Not That Bad: Dispatches from Rape Culture Edited by Roxane Gay (5/26/18) Print
  47. The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro (5/29/18) Print
  48. Button, Button: Uncanny Stories by Richard Matheson (5/30/18) Print
  49. Brother by Ania Ahlborn (5/31/18) Audio
  50. Best American Poetry 2012 Edited by Kevin Young (5/31/18) Print
  51. Dark Ages by Drew Tierney (6/4/18) Workshop
  52. The Birds by Daphne Du Maurier (6/11/18) Audioplay
  53. Dies Infaustus Edited by Shannon Iwanski (6/14/18) Ebook
  54. The Outsider by Stephen King (6/17/18) Print
  55. The Japanese Lover by Isabel Allende (6/21/18) Audio
  56. Orson Welles of Mars by Mac Boyle (6/21/18) Print
  57. Sing, Unburied, Sing by Jesmyn Ward (6/26/18) Print
  58. The Fourth Wall by Mac Boyle (6/27/18) Audioplay
  59. The Changeling by Joy Williams (7/1/18) Print
  60. The Seven Percent Solution by Nicholas Meyer (7/4/18) Print
  61. Laughing Plastic by Sally Burnette (7/5/18) Print
  62. What Is Yours is Not Yours by Helen Oyeyemi (7/6/18) Audio
  63. Manhattan Beach by Jennifer Egan (7/10/18) Print
  64. Little Sister Death by William Gay (7/11/18) Audio
  65. The Ghost Writer by Philip Roth (7/13/18) Print
  66. Calypso by David Sedaris (7/19/18) Print
  67. The Merry Spinster: Tales of Everyday Horror by Mallory Ortberg (7/21/18) Print
  68. Duped by Donna A. Leahey (7/23/18) Print
  69. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou (7/25/18) Audio
  70. Eileen by Otessa Moshfegh (7/29/18) Print
  71. Find Me by Laura Van Den Berg (8/5/18) Audio
  72. Circe by Madeline Miller (8/9/18) Print
  73. Arcadia by Tom Stoppard (8/14/18) Print
  74. White Tears by Hari Kunzru (8/15/18) Audio
  75. This Body’s Not Big Enough for Both of Us by Edgar Cantero (8/22/18) Print
  76. The Devil in Silver by Victor LaValle (8/26/18) Print
  77. The Keep by Jennifer Egan (8/30/18) Audio
  78. Paperbacks from Hell by Grady Hendrix (8/30/18) Print
  79. Frost Heaves by T. Stores (9/2/18) Print
  80. One Day We’ll All Be Dead and None of This Will Matter by Scaachi Koul (9/6/18) Print
  81. John Dies at the End by David Wong (9/20/18) Audio
  82. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas (9/25/18) Print
  83. The Tiger: A True Story of Vengeance and Survival by John Vaillant (9/27/18) Audio
  84. My Best Friend’s Exorcism by Grady Hendrix (10/3/18) Print
  85. The Incarnations by Susan Barker (10/11/18) Audio
  86. Big Machine by Victor LaValle (10/15/18) Print
  87. The Third Hotel by Laura Van Den Berg (10/23/18) Print
  88. The Coldest Girl in Cold Town by Holly Black (10/24/18) Audio
  89. True Indie by Don Coscarelli (10/24/18) Print
  90. Jaws by Peter Benchley (10/30/18) Audio
  91. The Cabin at the End of the World by Paul Tremblay (11/7/18) Audio
  92. The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin (11/8/18) Audio
  93. Threshold by Caitlin R. Kiernan (11/25/18) Print
  94. Future Home of the Living God but Louise Erdrich (11/27/18) Audio
  95. The Ecstatic by Victor LaValle (12/5/18) Print
  96. Going to Meet the Man by James Baldwin (12/7/18) Audio
  97. My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Otessa Moshfegh (12/16/18) Print
  98. McGlue by Otessa Moshfegh (12/19/18) Print
  99. Stuff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach (12/21/18) Audio
  100. Born A Crime by Trevor Noah (12/23/18) Print